December 2011
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August 2010
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May 2010
1 post
It's her birthday. His graduation.
Started off as any other day. The kind of day with the alarm buzzing and shoes not returned to the place you could have sworn that either one or both had been the day before. Greg had returned from a trip to Ohio where he had visited to find a home that he would be moving to, in the next few weeks. Ending his trip in Ohio he had flown home to Washington D.C., where a woman he once dated had...
April 2010
3 posts
No thanks.
I’m trying not to let the fact that you are apathetic and uninvolved.
I’m trying to not face the truth that you are on your way out.
I’m trying to not let the ways you speak affect me. I’m trying.
Trying.
It’s not like you are.
Where are you?
And where is it that you are going? Why are you distant?
In a place that can’t stop swelling?
Tell me. What is there to do now? I think it’s...
Hanging on for that last breath
I keep my cool. And by keep my cool, I guess that mean’s losing it. Day in and day out. Nothing to motivate. Nothing to look to. Just another monotomous fury of wasted energy….
This is what it feels like, hanging in there for that last final breath.
I’ve made my mind up. This isn’t going to work.
November 2009
37 posts
Not there yet.
Whoah it’s been almost two weeks.
New job. No news.
No love quest news.
No news from ex. Last weekend lots of news.
This week. No news.
With you. Saturday you had a hole in your roof. Maybe it was your ceiling.
Haven’t talked to you. Did you blow me off?
I emailed you this afternoon and tonight I texted you.
On this rainy Monday will you this evening accept my...
7:32.
Are the 4th, 5th, and 6th digits that remind me of you.
Are the numbers I associate with you.
It’s 732 and you pop into my head. You’re a part of the thinking I keep trying to forget.
732. 732. It’s not lucky or unlucky.
Just somehow the 7, the 3, and the 2. The numbers to me have to do with you.
It’s not about subtracting, adding or dividing. But when the numbers...
Have you thought that I might lose interest
I may lose interest. If you don’t get in touch. It’s in my nature. I will lose interest.
It’s natural to happen. You gotta keep me hooked or I will lose interest.
Have you thought that this could happen? Is this what you want to happen?
I bet not and I bet it won’t cross your mind. You’re playing it super cool thinking that’s what I like. It’s...
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Not that into me.
I can tell by your lack of attention. No texting no calling. Yeah, we hung out on Saturday went to dinner and watched a movie. But today there was nothing. I start a new job on Wednesday, that’s when I think I’ll know. Maybe you’ll send me a good luck text like I did to you. Are you thinking I’m too needy? Am I being too clingy?
Tomorrow I’m waking up early...
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25, omg.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about what it means to be ready to start a relationship. And the thinking isn’t coming all that easily.
To start I was going to make a list of why to date someone and what I’m really looking for in that special somebody and it clicked, I still have a lot to do for me. I’ve been surfing youtube for dating tips and why you’re...
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I'm not after your money.
I’m looking for a friend. A pal. A life-long buddy.
I’m looking for the person that I will call hubby. You’re all cuddly and quiet. Are you shy or just nervous? Are you not that into me?
I passed the day. Texted you around 3:30. I don’t want to come on strong.
I’ve dropped you before. Now, are you thinking I’m after your money?
I’m sorry honey....
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you had your 5k this morning
I slept a lot last night. You woke up this morning really early.
You probably overdressed. Wearing long sleeves and long socks. It’s really nice out and sunny.
The winter has turned us pale. Our hearts are red. Mine is red and burning. You said you’d text me when it was over.
Haven’t heard from you yet. Did I come on too strong? Are you not trusting me because you have...
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I lie to you
He’d had texted if he could. I didn’t. I texted you after midnight. I was out. He asked me to dinner.
We had plans. I’m not tied to you. Is that what you want? Are you lonely?
I don’t think I can fill your hole. I’ll probably see if you want to meet at the pond tomorrow for egg sandwiches.
How does that sound?
I can give it a go. It’s called keeping...
When you think it's over
It’s not. You got back in touch. I missed it.
How does it feel? Did you check your phone to look for what you missed? Did it cross your mind she’s probably with someone else?
I do that. How does it feel?
I don’t do it to hurt you. I do it for me. It doesn’t feel bad. It doesn’t feel good.
I had a good time tonight with someone who wanted to be there. We...
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Tomorrow you have a 5k.
We ate Greek food alright. And we watched that movie. I promised I’d return it. I did that already.
The movie was really good and the food made our stomachs bubble sounding all turny.
I think I had a good night.
You, I’m pretty sure that you did too. The kiss in the car, well that was kind of awkward. I didn’t use my tongue.
Did you want me to? I texted you good luck....
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Not very excited. I can sense it on the phone.
Not to be negative. But, do you really want to go?
Tell me if you don’t. No need for an obligation. You don’t seem that excited. I can sense it on the phone.
I excused it earlier. You were lying on the couch. Sorry, I missed your call. My phone didn’t ring.
I called you right back. I’ll clean my car, and come get you. The restaurant is on your side of town....
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You used to be my # 1
I invited you for a sofa session. You denied the invitation.
I knew you didn’t want to go out. It’s true that you don’t want college to be over.
I know this about you. I deny this about you.
It’s not me you want. You want someone new.
We shared a lot together. I tell myself over and over that this was before.
Why we keep after it - chasing the rainbow’s end....
LOL Smiley Face
You miss me and my dog already. You wanted me to text you good morning.
I texted you good morning. Remember? I texted after volunteering. Remember?
You miss my dog and me too, already?
I barely know your name. You play basketball and go to the gym. You work at the gym.
I didn’t catch your story. Iran? Tel Aviv? You could really get used to my company?
You miss me already.
Remember when
We had tapas by the lake.
A smorgasboard of tastes. I hadn’t been twenty-one more than six months.
You’d been twenty-one for six years.
It’s three years since then. I dated. You dated.
Last summer we went out. It didn’t work out.
I played games. You didn’t try that hard.
Today we talked on the phone. And you mumbled your way through. You texted me later...
day 2 with you - scratch that date three.
It’s not the first go. It’s not the second go either. It’s the third go.
You could say let me count the ways. Hey, have you kept count?
Will you talk about her? The yoga? Her dog? Him?
Did you really go to Amsterdam with him?
What can I say?
Am I interesting to you? Am I lying? Can I be me?
What do you mean you are what I need?
You could be what I need. I just...
Dating in the Fall
Opening it all up.
Stepping out.
Inviting new boys. Out or over.
Watching movies. Eating food.
Forgetting the past.
Creating a future. Single and infatuated. More love to share.
Opening it all up.
Stepping out.
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